I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life.

“I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life.  No one comes to the Father except through me.”  John 14:6cross2

“The student is not above the teacher, but everyone who is fully trained will be like their teacher.”  Luke 6:40

“If you’re not willing to be Jesus, don’t preach Jesus.”  ~ proverb of Zion

I must admit, I followed what I was taught blindly a very long time before I stopped looking to others to teach me what they knew about Jesus and started listening to His teachings for myself.  I stopped buying bibles with commentary, and started writing in the margins as I pondered the Truths that seemed to resonate in the message that I found Jesus to be teaching.  It is a painful memory for me to acknowledge that through some of the toughest struggles in my life, when I sought fellow Christians for answers they quote things to me like:  “God never gives us more than we can handle.”  and “Just keep your eyes on Jesus, and He will lead you through it.”   Continue reading

Easter

CalvaryHaving been raised in a Christian culture, and having spent much of my adult life seeking answers to spiritual questions I have run the gamut on how I approach this holiday.  I no longer feel the need to celebrate it at church…I will attend sometimes, but I don’t believe it’s a necessity, and my reasons for attending usually are motivated other than worship.  Even though, I am just as apt to engage in playful sarcasm at Christian faith as I am to say the blessing over the Easter dinner, I do respect that for millions yesterday is a solemn day of their faith….for me though, it is a day of FAMILY! Continue reading

The Sacred

long-journeyA day off, and I need a change of scenery!  I need more than that…I need to experience something of significance.  I need to step out of my day to day, beyond the casual escape of the routine and into the profound; I need to step into something Sacred. Continue reading

Choices! ugh…

stock-photo-vector-illustrations-of-busy-concepts-running-out-of-time-106546625Too much, to put everything into perspective!  A lot of changes going on in my life, nothing new for me that is true, but I usually try to find something stable and then let everything else gravitate around that.  In so doing, I keep a place of calm for me to focus on while the rest is all, well… FUCKED! Right now, everything is in motion, nothing is settling down…I’m making choices based on the long term, and the universe is keeping me in chaos in the moment!! Continue reading

The Language of God

darkness and silenceThere are places and experiences that speak to the soul, that develop our interior and allow us to grow, to learn….to become.  Inevitably I find that silence always surrounds these.  Those who spend their lives filling the void with noise…something to distract them from the reality that they are alone, will always struggle to develop and mature as humans, as man and woman, and whatever awaits us beyond the mortal toil we call life.

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Along the Way…

truth (1)I had a rough patch on my desire for answers and Truth the last year or so, crisis of faith so to speak.  I’m not one to mince words about my relationship with “God”; although saturated with Christian ideas, it is hardly your average Christian religious devotion anymore, and if what I suspect I will find along my path in the years to come proves true then the balance I seek will also find my ideas saturated with Buddhist teachings as I incorporate my eclectic studies and various interests into a coherent understanding of what brings me closest to my desire for Truth, Understanding, and most of all, a level of peace between me and the world in which I find myself. Continue reading

Thoughts on the darker side…

How much truth is there with the flame, and how much is hidden in the dark?  Blow out the candle, discover the Truth.I have more trouble learning to do things on my own.  I added extra security to my WordPress account with the Google Authenticator, then had to erase my phone and didn’t have said authentication and of course I didn’t have backup codes so I’ve had a time getting back into WordPress.  Ultimately I had to create a new account to ask about this one:  an option I recommend, because you can’t post to support forum or use the extra help form for the sign up without being logged in, which you can’t do without the authentication code.  Anyway, I’m back up and running!  And where have I run….for those not following my other blogs, I ‘ve run to Minnesota!  (Please refer to that blog for my daily blogs on life anew, and I will continue to use this blog for my Wisdom writings and thoughts on the deeper side, the darker side. Continue reading

When the evidence is clear!

The evidence required for the next step in the journey will present itself eventually as patience always has its way.At what point do we speculate about our beliefs and continue because this is what we have always done or in the obvious awareness of our information do we acknowledge that we can’t co-exist pretending one thing while aware and pursuing something that is totally contrast to that former way of existence.  This could be hypothetical for any number of circumstances, when does a spouse stop pretending that the mate isn’t having extramarital affairs?  When do we acknowledge what we believe spiritually is no longer consistent with the church we have attended or in line with the traditions of our family or culture and what point do we initiate change, and accept the consequences of it because the duality of living one set of values for appearances, and another as a result of personal quest and experience?  When does a person quit pretending they are something they are not for acceptance, for tradition, for fear of reprisals, for any reason accept to be who they are and bring their in-congruent selves into unity so they can live ONE LIFE as who we are and who we are meant to be? Continue reading

The Sage still lives, but jaded…

To dye and live is to rise the rose within.It has been a long journey of spiritual seeking, truth hunting, fact missing, book buying, beer drinking, enigma entangled, proselytized confirmation to bring me to the land that is nowhere even remotely close to the evangelical convert of my youth, (silent thanksgiving) and in all fairness, I have found my spiritual answers for deities, demigods, and folklore galore!  I have my direction, my reason to live, and building purpose is slow going but not without hope of success, and still…I’m ready to step it up a level beyond what I can find to satisfy….because the Truth and answers I found were to questions I NEVER WANTED TO ASK!  And now I have all this knowledge of things left simpler had I just turned the page, sang the psalm, and put the quarter in the plate as it passed by, never the wiser, just another regular guy for my Sunday morning meet & greet with the other favorites destined to watch in glee as we see those poor people suffer for their stupidity in following false Gods and believing their traditions after only several thousand years of no other options and now look at ’em; tricked out and burning up the coal house, for Hell’s kitchen to teach them sinner’s the right way, or punish them for the wrong way, or fuck….hell, it’s probably incorporated and heaven and hell are subsidiaries of a larger conglomerate that has the thing fronted up and loaded to lose either way…but who am I to preach….wwjd??  Maybe we should stop seeking a way out of trouble and just say can you just help us make this fucking work right and live a little longer, because sometimes “this shit just sucks!”  [I apologize for the language…I will show some restraint now.]

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Learning from the past…

A quote from my personal “hand-written” journals:

“Charity and Freedom, although both important, can never co-exist.  Freedom demands we observe personal rights, where Charity fails to acknowledge such rights ever exist.”

~Zion
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I determine my worth!

brokenheartIt amazes to me that people everywhere, in my life where I live, and in the communities I dwell within the internet; they all go through relationship after relationship, and it’s always ending with a broken heart!  Believe me, I know that pain, I know every ache, tear, and negative self talk that comes with such volatile break ups, and I sympathize, I do.  It isn’t their pain that I am mystified about, it is the fact that they never learn to be more cautious with their heart.  Let me be clear, when I say cautious I do not mean that they simply withhold themselves from others in a walled little world to themselves.  I am stating that they need to recognize the vulnerability revealed through the suffering they feel is a testament to depth of emotion and their ability to become an actual piece of the life to which they have given that heart away.   That heart is the most precious gift that they possess.  Continue reading