Jewels in my Crown

honours471eAs with everything in my life, I alter the plans to work best for me in accomplishing the goals to be achieved from the pattern most of the rest of the world follows.  My idiosyncrasies prohibit me from achieving the desired outcome if I try to do things the way others do them; I spent a lot of years learning this about myself…if I do it another’s way, I always fail, without exception…I know how to adapt things for me, and when came to raising three children, I did the same thing.  I made decisions that would achieve the goals I set for them.  When I looked into the lives others who either were raising children, or had raised children I saw two common denominators…those successes and/or the failures in the lives of the children could always be traced back to the decisions of the parents, and those successes parents always take credit for, and the failures they always blame the children.

My children were unfortunate enough to wind up in a dysfunctional family, with parents who continually made bad choices and thought life was one big fucking party.  If I made choices concerning them the way I made choices for myself, they would have grown up making the same type of choices that I made, and from the beginning I didn’t want that for them, and so I sought the tools they would need to have so that I could make sure that by the time they were stepping into adulthood they would be prepared to face those decisions in a way I never considered before;  and not be jaded and scarred with a lifetime of learning life’s lessons the hard way. Continue reading

What I’m looking for…

There is reason why I have never married again!  It’s been, well, a long time…my wife left in 1999 (which devastated me)…left me to raise three children on my own, and they turned out fantastic!  I have had girlfriends.  I have made a lot of friends of the opposite sex, but I have kept myself from stepping back into

Sometimes what I see in a girl can't be captured in a photo...

Sometimes what I see in a girl can’t be captured in a photo…

another marriage because I won’t make the same mistakes again.  I’m looking for a foundation on which to build, and for someone who inspires me to become more than who I am…many women intrigue me, even more excite me…it’s the rare find that actually is strong enough to be what I need, and still weak enough to need me. Continue reading

Choices! ugh…

stock-photo-vector-illustrations-of-busy-concepts-running-out-of-time-106546625Too much, to put everything into perspective!  A lot of changes going on in my life, nothing new for me that is true, but I usually try to find something stable and then let everything else gravitate around that.  In so doing, I keep a place of calm for me to focus on while the rest is all, well… FUCKED! Right now, everything is in motion, nothing is settling down…I’m making choices based on the long term, and the universe is keeping me in chaos in the moment!! Continue reading

A Season of Celibacy

A little over a year ago, I made a vow to be celibate, and I have been faithful to that decision.  I’m not convicted in a religious aspect; I honestly don’t believe sex is a sin, in any form between willing partners, for my readers who lean to conservative sides of their particular brand of worship, I respect your views, but I don’t share them.  I’ve decided to continue the practice again through 2014. Continue reading

A day of Rest

happy sabbathI love a day off…so much more than off day.  It’s time for renewing oneself to fight the good fight the rest of the week.  How do you renew?  What is that allows you to have a time well spent and upon completion feel rejuvenated and alive again?

There are several key things for me and reaching into each of them is something that I not only desire in my respite but I require it, relish it…cherish it!  Body, Mind & Soul…I need to replenish each of these to be whole, ready to give again as the demands of my life, my work, the world ..etc come to call upon me.

Today, is a good example of great day (for me).  It begins last night.  Whenever I have a day off…twice per week…I like to be a little social and visit the American Legion to which I am a member and have a couple rounds of drinks with friends and laughter.  [I could and probably will someday write and entire piece on the necessity of laughter for me as person.  Making people laugh is crucial to my whole system of engagement and how I interact with others….that, and a well lubricated cerebellum from the common libations served at the afore mentioned establishment, he says knowing my readers understand.] hangoverfree-beer This always leads into a no alarm morning.  I awake when I’m ready to awake.  The chill of winter has crept in the open window and yet rendered inert in it’s attempt to own the room by the heavy down comforters I find so much more appealing knowing the warmth within is my haven and hearth and I lay there often for over an hour not wanting to relinquish my comfort to the new dawn of my day of rest.  I love that kind of morning!

After some breakfast I drive to my gym, my place of renewal for my body.  I have a fantastic facility at Lifetime Fitness, and I pay a little more for it than your average club, but it’s worth every penny…of course, I would choose the club membership over cable television if money were tight and I have done just that for a lesser club, and this one is top notch!  I do a 10 mile run on the elliptical, a few laps the pool, I sit in the hot tub for about 20 minutes and then the steam room, followed by a long shower.  It is a brilliant way to spend 3 hours of my day and I feel great!  The endorphin’s from my workout are flowing heavy creating an high of confidence, satisfaction, and a natural desire to do.  My muscles though spent, are relaxed and at ease after the spa.  Occasionally this is a good time for a full body massage, another offering of this facility that I like to frequent when I can…unfortunately, not today.

ice formingI drive home along the lakes of Minnetonka and the beginnings of ice along the shorelines appear hear and there.  Though this will be my first winter in Minnesota I must admit I am enjoying the changes of the seasons and the views that such evolution is bringing to the stage.

At home, a small snack to satisfy a body craving for sustenance after an intense 90 minute run helps settle me down for emotional appeal to renew my sentiments toward the Heart, toward Love, and Life itself.  I watch an old favorite Under the Tuscan Sun with Diane Lane.  It’s a good drama, which deals with the need to be in love even when we can’t find it ourselves, and the sometimes not so obvious truth that just because romance is absent doesn’t mean love is missing…friends and family are a funnel the romantic heart often overlook when alone.

Speaking of family, my mom, sent me a gift, a book by Desmond Tutu, “God is Not a Christian”, and I’m eager to read it.  Receiving this in the mail today brought back fond memories of meeting this man at a lecture series many years ago while attending college.  And so I will spend part of this evening intriguing my mind with the thoughts of man who desperately appeals to people to bring down religious barriers and seeks justice for the oppressed.  As President Barack Obama says of him, “He is an outspoken voice for freedom and justice in countries across the globe.”

My day of rest includes exercising my body, my mind, and my heart.  This prepares me for another day in the world, another week of work, and sustains the man I desire to be:  one that lives life, not endures it.

namaste

Some new blog entries to share…

I have posted at a couple of my new sites and thought I would share them with you.  Today I released my newest site and it is focused on Dreams, the struggles and victories we have in the pursuit of fulfilling our lives with the visions of our deepest desires.

If I begin with a dream, the boundaries to reality are endless.

Those things that make life worth our best effort!

 This link will take you to the site of https://www.ifihadadream.blogspot.com/

Yesterday, I published a post on my new blog entitled:  Passion, Love, & Romance.   This blog is concerned with the feelings of my obsession and continued persistence in a love that I have shared about on here before but I still keep the names generic and protect the privacy of the intended as best I can given the venue, but I explore what I know about love, learn in the daily process, and share the feelings that can be very intense when I allow them to the surface.  I desired a site that I could use as a specific outlet for these life directing emotions; I hope that I am able to be as open as I can be so that others will be able to learn as much as I tend to learn in the process of writing these posts.

The emotions within the power of desire are but a taste of the true power that Love is ultimately capable of providing.

This is the link to my blog site:  https://www.believepassion.blogspot.com/

Thank you for all your support and continued visits to the various sites that I have authored and poured myself into for the purpose of this continued building of a network dream, the social network that eventually will be much more than just a few blogs by yours truly.  I appreciate you all and look forward to your comments.  

Love and Peace,

Zion Marion Amoure