Jewels in my Crown

honours471eAs with everything in my life, I alter the plans to work best for me in accomplishing the goals to be achieved from the pattern most of the rest of the world follows.  My idiosyncrasies prohibit me from achieving the desired outcome if I try to do things the way others do them; I spent a lot of years learning this about myself…if I do it another’s way, I always fail, without exception…I know how to adapt things for me, and when came to raising three children, I did the same thing.  I made decisions that would achieve the goals I set for them.  When I looked into the lives others who either were raising children, or had raised children I saw two common denominators…those successes and/or the failures in the lives of the children could always be traced back to the decisions of the parents, and those successes parents always take credit for, and the failures they always blame the children.

My children were unfortunate enough to wind up in a dysfunctional family, with parents who continually made bad choices and thought life was one big fucking party.  If I made choices concerning them the way I made choices for myself, they would have grown up making the same type of choices that I made, and from the beginning I didn’t want that for them, and so I sought the tools they would need to have so that I could make sure that by the time they were stepping into adulthood they would be prepared to face those decisions in a way I never considered before;  and not be jaded and scarred with a lifetime of learning life’s lessons the hard way. Continue reading

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Teachers aren’t always who we expect them to be…

My foster son!  I learned more from him than any teacher I ever had.  He was a Filipino, very wise, and…. retarded!  🙂 Continue reading

Venting about a work ethic!

There is something seriously wrong with people today.  I’m not trying to point fingers, but goddamn’t why does everybody think that the entire fucking world should be catered to them!!  I swear to God I find this everywhere!  It’s like the entire culture here in America thinks that if I don’t get what I want, I should bitch, and if it doesn’t happen then it’s conspiracy against me!

Seriously, when you have a problem with your neighbor, do you go to your neighbor, or go to your landlord?  When you have a problem with you coworker, do you go to that coworker, or do you go to your boss?  Do you want to save the relationship or just be right?  I’m of the conclusion that there is virtually no one who actually cares about their relationships anymore, they don’t want to fix it, they want to be right, and they want their way!! Period!!!  So they don’t care!  I just want the problem solved, and I shouldn’t have to deal with it!!  Are you fucking kidding me!!!!!!!  Is anyone actually mature in America anymore?????? Continue reading

What I’m looking for…

There is reason why I have never married again!  It’s been, well, a long time…my wife left in 1999 (which devastated me)…left me to raise three children on my own, and they turned out fantastic!  I have had girlfriends.  I have made a lot of friends of the opposite sex, but I have kept myself from stepping back into

Sometimes what I see in a girl can't be captured in a photo...

Sometimes what I see in a girl can’t be captured in a photo…

another marriage because I won’t make the same mistakes again.  I’m looking for a foundation on which to build, and for someone who inspires me to become more than who I am…many women intrigue me, even more excite me…it’s the rare find that actually is strong enough to be what I need, and still weak enough to need me. Continue reading

Just give the dollar!!

Something to consider in light of the Truth.

Something to consider in light of the Truth.

“Give strong drink to him who is perishing, And wine to him whose life is bitter.”  Proverbs 31:6

I can’t tell how many times I’ve heard Christians give me their reasons, justifications, and lectures on why they are so much more true to their God, because they withhold the dollar to the homeless man, lest it be spent on booze or drugs.  Some even go so far to say as I will offer them a meal, of course that isn’t what they were asking for…is it?

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Dr. Zion :-) (deciding???)

Sometimes what I see in a girl can't be captured in a photo...

Sometimes what I see in a girl can’t be captured in a photo…

In 1999, I was on the phone with  Princeton University; I was seriously considering pursing my religious studies in Theology through them, and I had the grades to get in…that year saw the end of a marriage, me with three children under 8 on my own, and some serious depression!  I have the degree…I’ve written the thesis…I’m no where near who I was then.   Continue reading

The Sacred

long-journeyA day off, and I need a change of scenery!  I need more than that…I need to experience something of significance.  I need to step out of my day to day, beyond the casual escape of the routine and into the profound; I need to step into something Sacred. Continue reading

Choices! ugh…

stock-photo-vector-illustrations-of-busy-concepts-running-out-of-time-106546625Too much, to put everything into perspective!  A lot of changes going on in my life, nothing new for me that is true, but I usually try to find something stable and then let everything else gravitate around that.  In so doing, I keep a place of calm for me to focus on while the rest is all, well… FUCKED! Right now, everything is in motion, nothing is settling down…I’m making choices based on the long term, and the universe is keeping me in chaos in the moment!! Continue reading

Honor

titles_of_honor_1614I have earned honor, received honor, and it must be said that I have also acted dishonorably in my lifetime.  I’m stepping into something that it would benefit me to acknowledge honors I would never have considered before, because I believe a name should announce who you are more than a title.  My name is Zion, and for those who know me, I hope it means…that’s a friend you can depend on, that’s a man who is willing to go the extra mile and more, and that is a man that won’t ever believe a person can’t reach their potential, and I’ll believe in you.  I know it means:  I’ve walked roads nobody else has walked!  I’ve made mistakes; I’ve made bad choices, but I’ve made GOOD choices that overshadow all the others! Continue reading

Some new blog entries to share…

I have posted at a couple of my new sites and thought I would share them with you.  Today I released my newest site and it is focused on Dreams, the struggles and victories we have in the pursuit of fulfilling our lives with the visions of our deepest desires.

If I begin with a dream, the boundaries to reality are endless.

Those things that make life worth our best effort!

 This link will take you to the site of https://www.ifihadadream.blogspot.com/

Yesterday, I published a post on my new blog entitled:  Passion, Love, & Romance.   This blog is concerned with the feelings of my obsession and continued persistence in a love that I have shared about on here before but I still keep the names generic and protect the privacy of the intended as best I can given the venue, but I explore what I know about love, learn in the daily process, and share the feelings that can be very intense when I allow them to the surface.  I desired a site that I could use as a specific outlet for these life directing emotions; I hope that I am able to be as open as I can be so that others will be able to learn as much as I tend to learn in the process of writing these posts.

The emotions within the power of desire are but a taste of the true power that Love is ultimately capable of providing.

This is the link to my blog site:  https://www.believepassion.blogspot.com/

Thank you for all your support and continued visits to the various sites that I have authored and poured myself into for the purpose of this continued building of a network dream, the social network that eventually will be much more than just a few blogs by yours truly.  I appreciate you all and look forward to your comments.  

Love and Peace,

Zion Marion Amoure