A day off, and I need a change of scenery! I need more than that…I need to experience something of significance. I need to step out of my day to day, beyond the casual escape of the routine and into the profound; I need to step into something Sacred. Continue reading
This ain’t an add for a girlfriend…but people ask me, what are you looking for in a partner? Well, this is what I’m looking for! Continue reading
What does God say to me? What are my experiences with God? These are personal experiences I ain’t willing to share, and it frustrates some of my readers. I will share what I know in what you should seek, but I won’t share more than that…you have to find it on your own!! Continue reading
There are places and experiences that speak to the soul, that develop our interior and allow us to grow, to learn….to become. Inevitably I find that silence always surrounds these. Those who spend their lives filling the void with noise…something to distract them from the reality that they are alone, will always struggle to develop and mature as humans, as man and woman, and whatever awaits us beyond the mortal toil we call life.
A little over a year ago, I made a vow to be celibate, and I have been faithful to that decision. I’m not convicted in a religious aspect; I honestly don’t believe sex is a sin, in any form between willing partners, for my readers who lean to conservative sides of their particular brand of worship, I respect your views, but I don’t share them. I’ve decided to continue the practice again through 2014. Continue reading
There is this little girl, she is 12, and in the hospital this holiday. Her mom drives a four hour commute to be with her each day, while her husband stays home with their other two boys. Her parents desire to see her receive a lot attention in the form of Christmas cards so she can be the center of so much attention from people all over and know that she is being thought of this Christmas. For such a small individual task, the outpouring of many would mean a lot to a little girl that is away from home, denied the experience that every child that celebrates this season is exhilarated to be the center of a euphoric and chaotic morning of attention, presents, torn paper, and hugs and kisses!
I’m asking on their behalf that if you would please send her a card this week. I was given permission to publish this name address for you to make this Christmas wish a reality. Thank you!
130 E. Ronning Ave Appleton, MN 56208
I had a rough patch on my desire for answers and Truth the last year or so, crisis of faith so to speak. I’m not one to mince words about my relationship with “God”; although saturated with Christian ideas, it is hardly your average Christian religious devotion anymore, and if what I suspect I will find along my path in the years to come proves true then the balance I seek will also find my ideas saturated with Buddhist teachings as I incorporate my eclectic studies and various interests into a coherent understanding of what brings me closest to my desire for Truth, Understanding, and most of all, a level of peace between me and the world in which I find myself. Continue reading
I have more trouble learning to do things on my own. I added extra security to my WordPress account with the Google Authenticator, then had to erase my phone and didn’t have said authentication and of course I didn’t have backup codes so I’ve had a time getting back into WordPress. Ultimately I had to create a new account to ask about this one: an option I recommend, because you can’t post to support forum or use the extra help form for the sign up without being logged in, which you can’t do without the authentication code. Anyway, I’m back up and running! And where have I run….for those not following my other blogs, I ‘ve run to Minnesota! (Please refer to that blog for my daily blogs on life anew, and I will continue to use this blog for my Wisdom writings and thoughts on the deeper side, the darker side. Continue reading
“A broken and contrite heart, O Lord, you will not despise.” Psalm 51:17
It is difficult sometimes to have a mental deficit that keeps me on guard during schizophrenic episodes, and remember who I am underneath it all. I get lost in the stories that fill my mind and they often are very anti-spiritual, definitely anti-Christ in persuasion, and my faith is buried in an effort to protect the Heart that is so precious to me, one that developed in a Love that taught me to accept myself as I am, and give all of myself in service to Love for another. Continue reading
The darkness of the early morn covers me like a shroud. The prayer of my slow rhythmic breath is felt upon the skin of my folded hands, fingers interlaced and humbly I’m knelt in submission to the peace I so rarely know in the midst of my mental battles, yet drawn back during the moments of sanity I am graced with now. In this act my life is resurected once more. Continue reading
I have found that much of what I use to believe or call faith was just imagination. When I was younger and new to Christianity they told me to have faith and God would grant me that which I asked of him….then they would add, “as long as it isn’t selfish.” It took me years of frustrated blind ignorance to come to understand that everything is selfish when I’m not surrendered to someone or something greater than myself. Even my prayers for others would be selfish, or my service to the poor. It all stems from “I feel sympathy” or “I feel good when I do this for you, or others”. It all has a motivational basis within us that in some way or another ultimately comes back to what we get from the action. Continue reading
It takes some fortitude to do what is best, what in our soul is right, and yet be the accused in the eyes of many. Continue reading
I’ve mentioned often my quest for Wisdom and seeking silent serenity through prayer and meditation. It is not always easy to quiet the mind especially for someone who has ADHD and is Schizophrenic. The mind races all the time and though medicine help quiet that down some it is still like trying to find a quiet moment in Grand Central Station. Continue reading