Just give the dollar!!

Something to consider in light of the Truth.

Something to consider in light of the Truth.

“Give strong drink to him who is perishing, And wine to him whose life is bitter.”  Proverbs 31:6

I can’t tell how many times I’ve heard Christians give me their reasons, justifications, and lectures on why they are so much more true to their God, because they withhold the dollar to the homeless man, lest it be spent on booze or drugs.  Some even go so far to say as I will offer them a meal, of course that isn’t what they were asking for…is it?

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Dr. Zion :-) (deciding???)

Sometimes what I see in a girl can't be captured in a photo...

Sometimes what I see in a girl can’t be captured in a photo…

In 1999, I was on the phone with  Princeton University; I was seriously considering pursing my religious studies in Theology through them, and I had the grades to get in…that year saw the end of a marriage, me with three children under 8 on my own, and some serious depression!  I have the degree…I’ve written the thesis…I’m no where near who I was then.   Continue reading

The Sacred

long-journeyA day off, and I need a change of scenery!  I need more than that…I need to experience something of significance.  I need to step out of my day to day, beyond the casual escape of the routine and into the profound; I need to step into something Sacred. Continue reading

Dust to dust (experiencing God)

light through the cloudsWhat does God say to me?  What are my experiences with God?  These are personal experiences I ain’t willing to share, and it frustrates some of my readers.  I will share what I know in what you should seek, but I won’t share more than that…you have to find it on your own!! Continue reading

The Language of God

darkness and silenceThere are places and experiences that speak to the soul, that develop our interior and allow us to grow, to learn….to become.  Inevitably I find that silence always surrounds these.  Those who spend their lives filling the void with noise…something to distract them from the reality that they are alone, will always struggle to develop and mature as humans, as man and woman, and whatever awaits us beyond the mortal toil we call life.

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A Season of Celibacy

A little over a year ago, I made a vow to be celibate, and I have been faithful to that decision.  I’m not convicted in a religious aspect; I honestly don’t believe sex is a sin, in any form between willing partners, for my readers who lean to conservative sides of their particular brand of worship, I respect your views, but I don’t share them.  I’ve decided to continue the practice again through 2014. Continue reading

A Big Plea for Christmas, a small task to fulfill…please help!

There is this little girl, she is 12, and in the hospital this holiday.  Her mom drives a four hour commute to be with her each day, while her husband stays home with their other two boys.  Her parents desire to see her receive a lot attention in the form of Christmas cards so she can be the center of so much attention from people all over and know that she is being thought of this Christmas.  For such a small individual task, the outpouring of many would mean a lot to a little girl that is away from home, denied the experience that every child that celebrates this season is exhilarated to be the center of a euphoric and chaotic morning of attention, presents, torn paper, and hugs and kisses!

I’m asking on their behalf that if you would please send her a card this week.  I was given permission to publish this name address for you to make this Christmas wish a reality.  Thank you!

Addres to:

Michala Wing

130 E. Ronning Ave Appleton, MN 56208

A Christmas Card is such a small sacrifice, but would brighten Michala's Christmas so much.

A Christmas Card is such a small sacrifice, but would brighten Michala’s Christmas so much.

A day of Rest

happy sabbathI love a day off…so much more than off day.  It’s time for renewing oneself to fight the good fight the rest of the week.  How do you renew?  What is that allows you to have a time well spent and upon completion feel rejuvenated and alive again?

There are several key things for me and reaching into each of them is something that I not only desire in my respite but I require it, relish it…cherish it!  Body, Mind & Soul…I need to replenish each of these to be whole, ready to give again as the demands of my life, my work, the world ..etc come to call upon me.

Today, is a good example of great day (for me).  It begins last night.  Whenever I have a day off…twice per week…I like to be a little social and visit the American Legion to which I am a member and have a couple rounds of drinks with friends and laughter.  [I could and probably will someday write and entire piece on the necessity of laughter for me as person.  Making people laugh is crucial to my whole system of engagement and how I interact with others….that, and a well lubricated cerebellum from the common libations served at the afore mentioned establishment, he says knowing my readers understand.] hangoverfree-beer This always leads into a no alarm morning.  I awake when I’m ready to awake.  The chill of winter has crept in the open window and yet rendered inert in it’s attempt to own the room by the heavy down comforters I find so much more appealing knowing the warmth within is my haven and hearth and I lay there often for over an hour not wanting to relinquish my comfort to the new dawn of my day of rest.  I love that kind of morning!

After some breakfast I drive to my gym, my place of renewal for my body.  I have a fantastic facility at Lifetime Fitness, and I pay a little more for it than your average club, but it’s worth every penny…of course, I would choose the club membership over cable television if money were tight and I have done just that for a lesser club, and this one is top notch!  I do a 10 mile run on the elliptical, a few laps the pool, I sit in the hot tub for about 20 minutes and then the steam room, followed by a long shower.  It is a brilliant way to spend 3 hours of my day and I feel great!  The endorphin’s from my workout are flowing heavy creating an high of confidence, satisfaction, and a natural desire to do.  My muscles though spent, are relaxed and at ease after the spa.  Occasionally this is a good time for a full body massage, another offering of this facility that I like to frequent when I can…unfortunately, not today.

ice formingI drive home along the lakes of Minnetonka and the beginnings of ice along the shorelines appear hear and there.  Though this will be my first winter in Minnesota I must admit I am enjoying the changes of the seasons and the views that such evolution is bringing to the stage.

At home, a small snack to satisfy a body craving for sustenance after an intense 90 minute run helps settle me down for emotional appeal to renew my sentiments toward the Heart, toward Love, and Life itself.  I watch an old favorite Under the Tuscan Sun with Diane Lane.  It’s a good drama, which deals with the need to be in love even when we can’t find it ourselves, and the sometimes not so obvious truth that just because romance is absent doesn’t mean love is missing…friends and family are a funnel the romantic heart often overlook when alone.

Speaking of family, my mom, sent me a gift, a book by Desmond Tutu, “God is Not a Christian”, and I’m eager to read it.  Receiving this in the mail today brought back fond memories of meeting this man at a lecture series many years ago while attending college.  And so I will spend part of this evening intriguing my mind with the thoughts of man who desperately appeals to people to bring down religious barriers and seeks justice for the oppressed.  As President Barack Obama says of him, “He is an outspoken voice for freedom and justice in countries across the globe.”

My day of rest includes exercising my body, my mind, and my heart.  This prepares me for another day in the world, another week of work, and sustains the man I desire to be:  one that lives life, not endures it.

namaste

Along the Way…

truth (1)I had a rough patch on my desire for answers and Truth the last year or so, crisis of faith so to speak.  I’m not one to mince words about my relationship with “God”; although saturated with Christian ideas, it is hardly your average Christian religious devotion anymore, and if what I suspect I will find along my path in the years to come proves true then the balance I seek will also find my ideas saturated with Buddhist teachings as I incorporate my eclectic studies and various interests into a coherent understanding of what brings me closest to my desire for Truth, Understanding, and most of all, a level of peace between me and the world in which I find myself. Continue reading

Thoughts on the darker side…

How much truth is there with the flame, and how much is hidden in the dark?  Blow out the candle, discover the Truth.I have more trouble learning to do things on my own.  I added extra security to my WordPress account with the Google Authenticator, then had to erase my phone and didn’t have said authentication and of course I didn’t have backup codes so I’ve had a time getting back into WordPress.  Ultimately I had to create a new account to ask about this one:  an option I recommend, because you can’t post to support forum or use the extra help form for the sign up without being logged in, which you can’t do without the authentication code.  Anyway, I’m back up and running!  And where have I run….for those not following my other blogs, I ‘ve run to Minnesota!  (Please refer to that blog for my daily blogs on life anew, and I will continue to use this blog for my Wisdom writings and thoughts on the deeper side, the darker side. Continue reading

Learning from the past…

A quote from my personal “hand-written” journals:

“Charity and Freedom, although both important, can never co-exist.  Freedom demands we observe personal rights, where Charity fails to acknowledge such rights ever exist.”

~Zion
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Is the friend we need found in Jesus? Or is Jesus the friend we should be and find in each other?

Follow my example, worship me when that is completed.I spent the evening with friends and it seems they were each needing some time with a friend that lets them share anything and everything that has built up and has been festering beneath the surface of their individual realities for sometime.  It’s in moments like this that the art of keeping the dialogue to a more gentle openness, a passive activity in silence because most of the time they don’t need advice; they need a friend willing to become the role of support that is found in an understanding and receptive confidant.  Tonight I was useful in the lives of others by quietly offering a silent sanctuary for their concerns, feelings, thoughts, and need for such a repository to be secured with a trust that keeps these confidences bound to the friend they leaned upon. Continue reading

Community

Community….not an easy thing for someone such as me to build.  Due to my schizophrenia, much of my life experience is spent within the confinds of my own mind.  It didn’t use to be that way, I have done many things, scuba diving, sky diving, kayaking with whales, hiking the volcanoes of hawaii, traveling the coasts of the pacific northwest, and multiple near death experiences that have all shaped my way of looking at life, but as my disease has progressed and I have been caught up in my own isolation the ability to form new bonds among social avenues has become difficult.

Im a very spiritual person as my blog would suggest though have tended to be far to liberal in my approach to be included in any one stream of thought. Although I would consider myself Christian, I might be hard pressed to get an evangelical to accept that statement, but I’m still considered Catholic by the Church’s standard.

I’ve been attending various churches trying to find a sense of some place that I can once again find somewhere to grow some roots so that I don’t feel so displaced among the area I live.  I need some since of community and I just don’t have it, so I’m seeking to identify a little more with those that I have previously avoided because of differences in ideology.  I don’t so much have a problem with their ideology, unless it is so intolerent that it can’t accept anyone else’s, but I have expected that my own would meet with some discomfort and problems so I haven’t built these bridges in a very long time, and now I’m a little out of my depth, because I don’t know how to be myself in a public situation, so I’m always uneasy.

I like this format a lot better, but it only deepens my comfort in isolation  as I build relations with fellow bloggers that I never see or really enter into any type of dialogue that would ultimately foster some sort of real relationship beyond that of casual acquaintance, and I now see this as necessary whereas before I never did.

I still read my various religious works.  I like to know what others believe, but I’m focusing more on Christianity now in my reading as I try to find some commonalities to build upon in the effort to find somewhere to fit in as I struggle alone through this path we all refer to as life.

What are some things that you all have found to help you build a sense of unity with the people you interact with where you live or worship.  I find religion itself doesn’t necessarily build that community, it requires more interaction than just attending the same building for a common purpose once per week.  How does one build relationships when it is difficult to relate to others?  How does one foster new friendships in new situations?  I could really use some feedback on this,thanks.

Finding my need for atonement again

“A broken and contrite heart, O Lord, you will not despise.”  Psalm 51:17

It is difficult sometimes to have a mental deficit that keeps me on guard during schizophrenic episodes, and remember who I am underneath it all.  I get lost in the stories that fill my mind and they often are very anti-spiritual, definitely anti-Christ in persuasion, and my faith is buried in an effort to protect the Heart that is so precious to me, one that developed in a Love that taught me to accept myself as I am, and give all of myself in service to Love for another.  Continue reading