Embracing Calamity

“Only he who is willing to give his body for the sake of the world

is fit to be entrusted with the world.  

Only he who can do it with love

is worthy of being the steward of the world.”

                    ~Lao Tsu

Embracing calamity as a sacrament of Life is part of the Way and a Truth that we all must face though few choose to accept.  We don’t search for adversity, nor deliberately put ourselves in the path of hardship, but we should never give over to the woe of the moment either.

It is a difficult task to remain calm in times of crisis, even more so to be thankful for the opportunity to experience the tribulation.  I am learning this lesson even as I type this. Continue reading


I don’t know how many people keep journals or diaries, but I’ve been writing in one for over 20 years.  The journals have taken different forms because I’ve gone through different stages in life and so my purposes in keeping them have changed over time.  Today, I keep 3 journals… Continue reading


“We make a vessel from a lump of clay; it is the empty space within the vessel that make it useful.

We make doors and windows for a room; but it is these empty spaces that make the room livable.

Thus, while the tangible has advantages, it is the intangible that makes it useful.”

                          ~Lao Tsu


Truth is found beyond the veil of the empirical.  The 5 senses allow us to understand the facts of this world in which we live, to discern the cause and effect of what we can experience with them, while theory allows us to suppose about the possibilities of more, and then explore through these senses by expanding our depth with them to confirm or annul what we conceived about the world we live.  All of this is wonderful, but incomplete.   Continue reading

Guilt or Remorse??

Guilt, as experienced in Western culture, is connected with hopelessness and discouragement and is past-oriented.  Genuine remorse, however, is a healthy state of mind–it is future oriented, connected with hope and causes us to act, to change.

                                ~Dalai Lama

I no longer allow guilt to haunt my present as it did when I was younger.  I used to be riddled with it, and I can tell you with the utmost sincerity, not once did guilt ever change my behavior.  I continued to do the vary things I felt guilty about and just lowered my self-worth and heaped on the shame of my existence, which only served to increase my self-destructive behaviors which led to more guilt…oh, it was a damn sick sight of a carousel ride! Continue reading

Gospel of Thomas (v.5)

Jesus said, “Recognize what is in front of your face, and what is concealed will be revealed to you.  For there is nothing hidden that will not be disclosed.”  (v.5)

The recognition of what is taking place around us is a depth of understanding that requires the wisdom and development of a contemplative mind.  This type of contemplation was employed by the mystics of their day, not for objective analysis, but rather with an openness to what is beyond the 5 senses.  This is an understanding that this mortal flesh is a wondrous advancement in mortal evolution and a gift to be cherished but that there are things to be experienced beyond what this flesh has yet conceived of even attempting to know.   Continue reading

Corpus Christi

“I am the bread of Life”  (John 6:48)

In this teaching I find unity of all things.  I hear Jesus proclaiming that the flesh is made perfect in the eyes of His Father, and that those who walk in His Way, those that choose to carry the cross, to Love another with Unconditional surrender, to Love without possibility of rejection, becomes the very essence of the Way.   Continue reading

The selfless self!

“The Sage wants to remain behind,

But finds himself at the head of others;

Reckons himself out,

But finds himself safe and secure.

Is it not because he is selfless

That his Self is realized?”

           ~Lao Tsu

Anyone who has began the journey of loving another unconditionally will soon discover that the self, that inner part of us that always came first until this venture, must be made sacrifice for the good of the Beloved.   Continue reading

The Birth of Silence

In the darkness I am open with a sight not known to me.  Standing at the edge of nothingness, when all that is fades from shape and future into a formless void, I see the beginning of all things as it was before the birth of creation.  The breath of Me is still present, I can know it yet separated from an empirical perception, in a state of existence where senses are bereft of knowledge and an effortless consciousness is required to become aware of the unattainable…tranquil silence. Continue reading

Am I truly ready for change?

This is such a great question to ask when faced with life decisions.  We are always asking ourselves: do I want this? do I need this?  is this really what I want to do with my life?  But one of the best questions I find for almost any area, whether it is interior or exterior issues, is:  am i ready for change?   Continue reading

When giving Gifts think of the Receiver.

One of the things that I hate about birthdays and Christmas is the random accumulation of things that mean absolutely nothing to anyone, we just feel obligated to buy something so we do, and speaks no sentiment, and means nothing other than clutter to the one receiving it.

My Mom, bought me a gift today, for no reason other than to give her son a gift, which I think is the best reason…much better than for a specific day.  And what did I get?  A GIFT that is perfect for ME!

I am fascinated with Religions, Wisdom, Folklore, and Spirituality.  As can be seen by my posts, I love reading about them, experiencing what I am able to experience and writing about what I come to know. Continue reading

The Interior Life

“One of the most important–and most neglected–elements in the beginnings of the interior life is the ability to respond to reality, to see the value and the beauty in ordinary things, to come alive to the splendor that is all around us in the creatures of God.” (No Man is an Island, by Thomas Merton, p.33)

The interior life is that which makes us and defines us, thus a lack of an interior life defines us as a person living for exterior things:  wealth, power, fame, sex, drugs, alcohol, entertainment, sports, and the list goes on.  These things are NOT inherently bad, yet the life that is centered on the accumulation of these things and/or experiences remain shallow and often miss the value of Truth, and importance of the people, places, and things too, that are in their lives everyday. Continue reading

Gospel of Thomas (v.3) Nosce te ipsum!

If those who lead you say, “Look, the kingdom is in heaven,” then the birds of heaven will precede you.  If they say, “It is in the sea,” then the fish will precede you.  Rather, the kingdom is within you and outside you.  When you know yourselves, you will be known, and you will know you are children of the living father.  But if you do not know yourselves, you live in poverty and you yourselves are the poverty. (v.3)

Nosce te ipsum

No one, no leader, no pastor, no teacher, no friend, no parent is able to tell anyone else who they are, that discovery must be made by each one of us; and it is imperative to understanding that we begin our journey in this life with this venture into our own person.  The more we depend on others to show us who we are the more mountains we will build that will unltimately stand in our way to that discovery later, and the greater the range of mountains the more difficult the task will be. Continue reading

My Library

I read books the same way I listen to music; this means I’m very eclectic. I like most genres.  Because my mind is the way it is, I can rarely read a book cover to cover, I have to read several books at the same time, for example I’m currently reading eight books, 5 non-fiction in the spiritual/philosophical genre, 1 daily reflection, and 2 fiction books.  Most I read some of everyday, while 2 of them I read only occasionally as one I leave at the public library and the other (one of the fictions) I find a little trite but I want to finish it so I just read it now and then.

I put up a page of books I consider essential to my library, although it isn’t exhaustive.  If there is one thing I can’t stand it is a library that is filled with only books the reader can agree with the authors.  I much prefer a library that pushes me to see things from another perspective, as for religion, I won’t even talk about one until I’ve read their major works and beliefs.  I keep meaning to get the book of Mormon and Koran, because I’ve never read those, and I want too, not because I expect to convert but because I want to understand what they believe.  I’ve read the Bhagavad Gita and I should add that to my list of essentials, all religions should be represented in my essentials….I’ll do that today.  I’ve read books defending both the theories of evolution and creationism.  I like that they both look at the same evidence and conclude different answers….my own personal view…. Continue reading


For well over a decade one of my favorite works of Art has been the The Scream by Edvard Munch.  Many find it disturbing, bizarre, even creepy, but for me it speaks volumes to my life and mind.  I see in it much of what I lived day in and day out for near 20 years of this earthly existence….to me it’s not just a painting, it’s a mirror. Continue reading

Spes quae videtur non est spes.

I’ve been meditating upon this phrase for the better part of an hour this morning.  Spes quae videtur non est spes.  Loosely translated, “Hope that is seen, is not hope.”  I questioned the truth of this statement and I’ve been chewing on it rather than breakfast.  I can’t pull myself away from it.  Normally, I would meditate upon the Gospel of Thomas verse for a few minutes before breakfast, but this morning this statement caught my mind, and in very unusual way…I’m not distracted from it….I’ve stayed focused upon this thread of thought for over an hour, listening to the silence to reveal some understanding, entering into a dialogue with my private muse and counselor, only to discover more mystery than evidence, which from my perspective means I’m on the right path. Continue reading