I determine my worth!

brokenheartIt amazes to me that people everywhere, in my life where I live, and in the communities I dwell within the internet; they all go through relationship after relationship, and it’s always ending with a broken heart!  Believe me, I know that pain, I know every ache, tear, and negative self talk that comes with such volatile break ups, and I sympathize, I do.  It isn’t their pain that I am mystified about, it is the fact that they never learn to be more cautious with their heart.  Let me be clear, when I say cautious I do not mean that they simply withhold themselves from others in a walled little world to themselves.  I am stating that they need to recognize the vulnerability revealed through the suffering they feel is a testament to depth of emotion and their ability to become an actual piece of the life to which they have given that heart away.   That heart is the most precious gift that they possess.  Continue reading

Is the friend we need found in Jesus? Or is Jesus the friend we should be and find in each other?

Follow my example, worship me when that is completed.I spent the evening with friends and it seems they were each needing some time with a friend that lets them share anything and everything that has built up and has been festering beneath the surface of their individual realities for sometime.  It’s in moments like this that the art of keeping the dialogue to a more gentle openness, a passive activity in silence because most of the time they don’t need advice; they need a friend willing to become the role of support that is found in an understanding and receptive confidant.  Tonight I was useful in the lives of others by quietly offering a silent sanctuary for their concerns, feelings, thoughts, and need for such a repository to be secured with a trust that keeps these confidences bound to the friend they leaned upon. Continue reading

One with the Way

“Only simple and quiet words will ripen of themselves…

He who cultivates the Tao is one with the Tao”

              ~Lao Tsu Continue reading

The Joy of Blogging

When I first googled the word “blog” this last April I had never even read a blog, much less written one.  I never had any interest in it, but a friend had suggested it might be a good idea for me and I knew I had a natural talent for writing ever since college.  Back then, I preferred classes with a 10 page final instead of a test because I new I would get an “A” in that class, without much time investment.  I have been writing a  journal for over 20 years, so in a certain since, I’ve been preparing for this for a very long time, but I didn’t know I would come to enjoy it so much. Continue reading

Gospel of Thomas (v.7)

“Blessed is the lion that the man shall eat,

so that the lion will become human.

Cursed is the man whom the lion shall eat,

and the lion will become human.”  (v.7)

When I read this verse, and meditate upon it, I keep revolving around the term “Lion of Judah”, a reference for Jesus in the Christian tradition.  I believe in prophecy, and I believe that because we all are indwelt by the Presence of the Creator then we all have access to knowledge beyond the 5 senses, learning to understand that knowledge and how to use the vision of that knowledge is not something I believe is widely known, nor even accepted.

I believe this verse was spoken in a prophetic since by Jesus in regards to what would become instituted as the Eucharist, or Communion as it is also referred too.  “I am the Bread of Life.” (John 6:48) Continue reading

Religion Renewal…

“In the West,

religion became preoccupied

with telling people what to know

more than how to know,

telling people what to see

more than how to see.”

                             ~Richard Rohr

Believe it or not, Richard Rohr is a Franciscan Priest in the Catholic tradition.  I find it very refreshing to find not only believers in Christianity, but a member of the leadership and fraternal order to have rediscovered the contemplative awakening of a relationship with the Presence that indwells each of us and I also find in Fr. Rohr a kindred spirit, so to speak, as he speaks and writes very similar to the Truths that I write about both on this blog and in my journals. Continue reading

Always & Forever

A common theme to my interior life and thus to much of my creations is Unconditional Love.  It is devotion and passion without boundaries.  It is something that at birth we are all capable of giving for it appears to be imprinted upon us through the process of creation itself.  With the first kiss of breath, that very moment that Life sparks within the essence of a babe the ability to Love is Present, only through experience and degeneration are we brought low to exist with the walls of fear for possible injury and threat to our emotional and physical security. Continue reading

Dreams

I believe if someone desires to see dreams come true then half efforts are worthless, it’s got to be all or nothing.  My dreams are huge, and yet it’s the intangible dreams that are the biggest for me, and as long as my needs are met then I am free to pursue those huge dreams.

I made a decision, to put my income on the field of my writing, because I desire to be a writer. Continue reading

Gospel of Thomas (v.6)

His Disciples asked Him, “Do you want us to fast?  How shall we pray?  Shall we give alms?  What diet shall we keep?”

Jesus said, “Do not lie and do not do what you hate, because all things are revealed in the sight of heaven.  For nothing is hidden that will not be revealed, and nothings is covered that will remain covered.”  (v.6)

I love that the first thing Jesus tells them is don’t offer to take on religious burdens that you hate doing, the very fact that you hate it means your every action and deed in those offerings to God is a lie, you aren’t fooling him nor are you endearing yourself to him. Continue reading

Thankfulness!!

I don’t know how many people keep journals or diaries, but I’ve been writing in one for over 20 years.  The journals have taken different forms because I’ve gone through different stages in life and so my purposes in keeping them have changed over time.  Today, I keep 3 journals… Continue reading

The Birth of Silence

In the darkness I am open with a sight not known to me.  Standing at the edge of nothingness, when all that is fades from shape and future into a formless void, I see the beginning of all things as it was before the birth of creation.  The breath of Me is still present, I can know it yet separated from an empirical perception, in a state of existence where senses are bereft of knowledge and an effortless consciousness is required to become aware of the unattainable…tranquil silence. Continue reading

Am I truly ready for change?

This is such a great question to ask when faced with life decisions.  We are always asking ourselves: do I want this? do I need this?  is this really what I want to do with my life?  But one of the best questions I find for almost any area, whether it is interior or exterior issues, is:  am i ready for change?   Continue reading

The Interior Life

“One of the most important–and most neglected–elements in the beginnings of the interior life is the ability to respond to reality, to see the value and the beauty in ordinary things, to come alive to the splendor that is all around us in the creatures of God.” (No Man is an Island, by Thomas Merton, p.33)

The interior life is that which makes us and defines us, thus a lack of an interior life defines us as a person living for exterior things:  wealth, power, fame, sex, drugs, alcohol, entertainment, sports, and the list goes on.  These things are NOT inherently bad, yet the life that is centered on the accumulation of these things and/or experiences remain shallow and often miss the value of Truth, and importance of the people, places, and things too, that are in their lives everyday. Continue reading

Gospel of Thomas (v.3) Nosce te ipsum!

If those who lead you say, “Look, the kingdom is in heaven,” then the birds of heaven will precede you.  If they say, “It is in the sea,” then the fish will precede you.  Rather, the kingdom is within you and outside you.  When you know yourselves, you will be known, and you will know you are children of the living father.  But if you do not know yourselves, you live in poverty and you yourselves are the poverty. (v.3)

Nosce te ipsum

No one, no leader, no pastor, no teacher, no friend, no parent is able to tell anyone else who they are, that discovery must be made by each one of us; and it is imperative to understanding that we begin our journey in this life with this venture into our own person.  The more we depend on others to show us who we are the more mountains we will build that will unltimately stand in our way to that discovery later, and the greater the range of mountains the more difficult the task will be. Continue reading

Spes quae videtur non est spes.

I’ve been meditating upon this phrase for the better part of an hour this morning.  Spes quae videtur non est spes.  Loosely translated, “Hope that is seen, is not hope.”  I questioned the truth of this statement and I’ve been chewing on it rather than breakfast.  I can’t pull myself away from it.  Normally, I would meditate upon the Gospel of Thomas verse for a few minutes before breakfast, but this morning this statement caught my mind, and in very unusual way…I’m not distracted from it….I’ve stayed focused upon this thread of thought for over an hour, listening to the silence to reveal some understanding, entering into a dialogue with my private muse and counselor, only to discover more mystery than evidence, which from my perspective means I’m on the right path. Continue reading